I jump-started my job search when I learned my current position was going to be eliminated. With my skills and experience, I thought it would be simple. Unemployment and rejection weren’t in my plan.
Impending Job Loss
In August, I found out that the company I worked for was being bought out and that my position would be eliminated sometime in December. Of course, I “freaked out” at first. But I quickly pulled myself together and freshened up my résumé and listed it on job-recruiting websites.
I did what a responsible person would do to start looking for another job. I looked through all job postings and started applying, thinking that it would be great to have a new job when my current position came to an end. That would be the master plan! I have experience. I’m educated. And I have many great qualities. This will be simple.
Or so I thought.
Then I started to get rejection notices from jobs I for which I had applied or interviewed. They were real rejection notices:
“Thank you for applying, but after reviewing your résumé, we have determined that you aren’t what we are looking for.”
“Thank you for your inquiry, but we have decided to go with another candidate.”
“We don’t believe you have enough experience with [fill in the blank].”
“We have decided to hire someone from El Salvador.”
It was a crushing blow each and every time. It felt terrible.
But I did get through it.
How I Handle Rejection
Honestly, I get upset. I think, “What is wrong with me?” or “Why would you hire
someone in another country?” Yes, I let myself feel my feelings! Not for a long
time. Maybe a few minutes or so, but that’s all. I think it’s important to
recognize how I feel and accept the sadness and disappointment of being
rejected. But it’s also important not to dwell and get stuck in these emotions.
Not every position I apply for is a
good fit for me. Just because I applied for
something doesn’t mean it’s the job for me. It would be impossible for one
person to apply to just one job posting and get that job! Okay, maybe it
happens, but that’s definitely not the norm. So I would tell myself, “There is
a job for each person out there, and I just need to move on and keep looking
I remember that having my résumé rejected doesn’t mean I’m a bad employee (or person). Résumés are just words on paper. They don’t tell you the whole story about a person. I would know—I’ve hired people before, and when a job posting went up, I would get a hundred résumés. I had to read each one to see if the applicant might be a good fit. As an employer, you are looking for keywords and qualifications to see if want to contact that person based on their résumé. Obviously, my list of skills and experience didn’t fit the bill of what the reviewer was looking for. It’s not a reflection on me as a person or me as an employee.
I believe that God has a plan for my life. I believe that there is a reason my position was eliminated from a company I loved and with people I loved. There is a place God wants me to go next, even though there aren’t big flashing signs saying “Apply Here! This Is the Job for You!” The rejections are a sign that the job isn’t meant for me. The verse that I kept repeating in my head during the difficult days of rejection is Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
It Doesn’t Last Forever
My last day at my former place of employment was in the middle of December. As I wrote this blog in January, I was still unemployed. However, I got up every day, and I got dressed, put on makeup, and applied for new opportunities.
Each day was different for me when dealing with the different rejections I received, but with God and my family and friends by my side, I believed everything would work out.
And as this post goes up today, I am happy to report that it did work out. I was out of work for two months. Now I have started work with a new employer, and I’m looking forward to where this will take me.
Jessica Taylor lives in the Tampa Bay area. She has an MBA from Western Governors University and a BS in accounting from the University of South Florida. She was diagnosed with bipolar II in 2016, at age 35. She has been with the love of her life for almost two decades. A corporate accountant who found her passion for this career in 2004, Jessica is also an avid outdoorsman. She loves Jesus and spending time with her family. Her hope is to shine a light on living with bipolar from what she has learned.
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