The Upside of Meeting Your Manic Self
A few weeks ago, I accepted a book deal for my second book—a memoir highlighting my clinical bipolarity (as someone living with bipolar disorder) and my cultural bipolarity (as an Iranian-American Muslim). I have about a year to finish writing the book, as I’ve only written a handful of chapters thus far, so I’m just getting started.
Despite the fact that the book is about my own experiences, it still requires tons of research on my part—and not the kind I particularly enjoy doing. In preparation for writing, I’m now in the process going through old diaries, documents, notes and medical records.
I tend to write a lot when I’m manic, and a lot of that writing tends to read like nonsense. So, reviewing all my manic rants has proven exhausting—not to mention disturbing. It’s definitely not something I would have done if I weren’t writing this book. Nonetheless, reviewing Manic Melody’s notes has been incredibly enlightening.
I wouldn’t have thought that reading my delusional ramblings would in any way further my journey toward health and recovery, but it has. By taking the time to “meet” my manic self while I’m in a stable and healthy place, I’m learning just how vital it is for me to continue taking my medication and pursuing healthy habits when it comes to sleep, diet and exercise especially.
What insights have you come upon after seeing, hearing or reading the products of your manic mind?
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