Last Updated: 1 Jul 2020




I look out the window and see raw, cold, and cloudy. I’m about to step out and be enveloped by it…mentally, emotionally and physically.

I turn on the computer for the “accurate forecast” and the weather website heralds: Severe weekend storm alert! Then I glance down at a chart which has a pain index for the day…”minimal” is listed. Here’s what I thought:

Which kind of pain will be minimal today? Emotional, mental, or people who insist on being “a boil on the butt of humanity” kind of pain?

I don’t know about you, but on days like this, Bipolar Disorder tends to over-ripen my senses. Noise, florescent lighting, too many people milling around me in crowded places, makes me want to isolate myself.

In harmony with the picture above, since weather affects the mood something terrible, I’d like to be transported to another weather system immediately….

Can’t do it though. I’ve got a household with the lives of three people and a dog to run. You fill in the blank: It’s a good thing _______is available, otherwise I couldn’t take another step. My fill-in is prayer.

About the author
Candee was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a little over 10 years ago. Long before that, she tried to tell anyone who would listen, that something in her brain wasn't wired right. Her parents said she was being dramatic; her siblings got a kick out of her being the family clown, bouncing off the walls; her friends, emphatically said: "Oh no girlfriend, you don't fix that, you ride it like the wind!" So she did....then BAM! Out of the blue, she ran into what felt like a wall of nails. Awaiting her was a nasty bout of depression crippling her for a long time. After finding the right treatment things slowed down a bit and she’s back on her a relative sense. There are no "typical days" for a BP warrior - it's a lazy river or a tightrope. She is somewhat grounded by her husband of 26 years, her teenaged daughter and her Shetland Sheepdog. Oh, and the other "elephant in the room:" Rheumatoid Arthritis. Stay tuned.

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